One More Chance

If you’d be given a chance to go back in time, will you take the chance? Will you give up today so you can go back to yesterday?

I remember a Filipino movie entitled “One More Chance”. A lot of people have been telling me to watch it coz it’s really nice and I can relate to it but I haven’t done so, and I’m betting that I won’t be doing so. Not in the near future tho. Maybe someday I will. You may call it a coincidence but the story was somehow similar to my real love story. Long-term relationship that started in UST that eventually ended after 5 years. OUCH. Haha. I can still remember the pain at times but most of the time, I laugh thru it.

There are times I do want to go back in time especially on heavy days that I really miss those days he’s with me. The first love I had was almost perfect that I couldn’t dare to get mad to the guy which made it harder for me to move on before. But I’m so glad I did and not clinging to pass is what made me do it.

To answer why I never watch the movie? Not because I’ll get hurt but because I don’t want to influence myself and believe in one more chance. As they say, “what’s done is done”.

It’s been 365 days now. The pain is gone, the longing is gone, but the loneliness, is it gone?

At the moment, loneliness is still here. I’m happy, no doubt about it. But “used to be” are really hard to deal with sometimes. There are times I wish I have somebody. Somebody I can share my thoughts with, share my time with and hopefully share my life with.

I’ve used to believe in forever love and I was ready to give that love to someone, wholeheartedly. But sadness, he stepped on it and pushed me away. Ironic as life is, when you’re ready to give everything to someone that’s when they take you for granted. Oh my, I’m word vomiting here.hahaha.

It’s raining outside and it feels like it’s raining inside me, at this very minute, right here, right now.