Saturday, January 10, 2009

Changing Mindset

Life’s a choice. “Destiny” believers will say the contrary, but for someone who has been in the both side, I found out that 90% of the time it is true and I’ll leave the 10% to divine intervention or call it, “fortuitous”. In anything, there’s always two side of the story that we cannot really say which is right or not. Indifferences as we call it. With two sides comes two different beliefs, and when one cross from one belief to another thus indeed a miracle. Miracle as it is, I’ve proven that it doesn’t completely rest to miracle for this to happen. I’ve happened to proved that it all comes down to “mindset”. Changing mindset leads to different perspective. :)

Before, I’m a person of “heart over mind”. I grew up believing that you should always follow your heart. Despite the great influence of analysis in my field, I always end up setting aside my rational for the whole benefit of my heart. And I honestly don’t see any problem with it, coz for 22 years that helped me reach the level of where I am now because of my heart. Following it feeds me the great desire that helped me reached for what I want by extreme will, even if it’s irrational. That gave me a lot of happiness in the past which I’m very thankful of. But I realized that following my heart made me short-sighted. Coz I do not listen to everybody else’s logic coz I always felt that my heart tells me the right thing coz it felt it was the thing that could make me happy. And as I’ve said there’s nothing wrong with it. But the only thing that I didn’t like with this is I felt I’ve missed some things in my journey in following my heart. I still value my heart coz it gives me my life, but now, in every battle of my heart and mind, I usually give bias to my mind. It may not be the right thing, but I noticed that clinging to my rational gave me this open mind to anything including disappointment, resentment, annoyance and anything negative. That whatever negative circumstance happens, I can surpass it without feeling too bad and gave me more courage to be better. It’s amazing to see the light of a different mind coz things are so different. Different that sometimes it scares you coz it’s out of your comfort zone or “used to be”. That’s “three” different in two sentences coz it’s really different. Hahaha. With rationality I felt so happy despite the most tragic of tragic, I had more time to do what I want and be open to different “wants”, and it gave me courage to look brightly in the future instead of mourning into the past or to problems. It gave me open-mind to see possibilities in each circumstance and lastly, it made me feel calm and grateful in every breathing moment.haha. So different that probably my old-self wouldn’t completely agree with how I think now or probably it wouldn’t even surpass the circumstances. But all I know is it gave me happiness to anything but anything. :)

Passing By

The world revolves 24-hours, and since I’m still young, I can survive 24-hours sleepless, did that for a few times already. Other than working and living at night, my worse-unhealthy-habit was not sleeping 24-hours to 32 hours straight. Work-acholic as I was, the past years I was too focused with my career and other stuff that health was my least priority. Good thing I woke up now before I start experiencing its side effects.

Health is wealth; most people say that to me. I used to listen but forget it after 5-minutes. I even used to feel that time is so short for all the stuff I need to do that 24-hours isn’t enough already. Worse even lying down on my bed couldn’t make me sleep coz of these “stuff”. Career-freak as I was, sleeping was hard-work for me. No wonder pimples freaked out of me and people see me as “28-year-old with 3-children”…OUCH. Hahaha. But encountering the word “balance”, I personally agree that 24-hours are enough for everything without looking as a stress-tab-haggard-model. Plus I’ve even looked blooming. Haha. :)

With all the turn-around that happened to me in 2008, I noticed that this year I’ve attended to a lot of funerals from a colleague, batch mate, childhood friend and just recently a relative. Death is the most dreadful topic for me before. I can’t even listen to a single ghost story plus I can’t even dare to look at the coffin on the wake. I always have this little fear of the unknown, like I wake up and realize that I’ve just been alive for 22 years now (and counting J) but will be sleeping or dead or in the unknown for the rest of the years. That thought bring fear to me before, but now, it’s a different story.

Now, death is a reminder for me that life’s just temporary. That whatever you accomplish, whatever you have and whatever you do is just temporary. But you shouldn’t live in fear or be a bummer, instead try to make the best out of it. Fulfill those dreams, do what you want, be crazy and live fully each day not forgetting to try to balance everything in your life: relationship, health, career and spiritual. For you’ll never know until when you’d be able to do it.

Crossroads

Anything done first is both exciting and hard. Excitement comes from the desire of knowing much as we can that eventually becomes hard coz you have to do a lot of work and adjustment. My desire for learning now is too high that sometimes it does frustrate me. As we know, in our world today, there’s too much information going around that can lead us to become overloaded with stuff. And it’s up to you on which to believe in and follow thru. In my quest to learning, I’ve read a lot of books, looked into a lot of websites and asked around to get as much of a deal, and I can say I do feel overwhelmed sometimes. So when it happens, I stop and does something fun, like hang out with my friends and my family. Then afterwards, go back to my quest again.

I’m a professional accountant, and I used to be very sure of my track to where I wanna be in this field. I used to be so sure on where I’m going before something had to be done that I had to get out of the course where I was looking at. The reason for my detour is already gone. That left me too devastated for months because I felt I’ve lost both my career and my life. I can always go back to my old track if I wanted to, like a prodigal son I just need to admit that I was mislead. Tho I know I’ve made the wrong move of detouring, at the moment I no longer feel that I still want what I’ve used to dream about. That it does scare me coz the path I want to pursue now is a little different to the course of my profession and it is very risky. It’s a course not looked as successful at the early stage but once you hit the right blend, its financial impact is indeed very rewarding. But as I’ve said, it’s very risky bcoz the reward isn’t sure. It’ll depend on how good you get in blending it. Very unlike of my old track, coz my old dream was a sure successful thing if you persevere in it, if you work and put your soul it in, literally, coz the work does require it. That’s why I felt I was having a mid-life crisis, at the end of a crossroad having to choose between the left or right route. Depending on me which route is “right”.

Now, I think I did make my choice already and I am starting it up. I’ve taken a few babysteps already. Tho the reward financially isn’t here yet, but I feel like I am at the right path coz I feel happy. And isn’t it the most important thing? But I know I’ll go thru a deal of failures from this path, but I just need to keep reminding myself to keep moving forward and start all over again, anyways, anything first is both exciting and hard. For sure, it’ll be a fun route of more learning. As they say, success and failure comes hand in hand. Success comes from multiple failures and those who win just know how to stand up.:)

Three Kings

Christmas is few days away. By now, christmas songs are heard everywhere, adding up metro lights that shines brightly as ever. If only it’ll snow in PI, it can be felt that the favorite season of many is here. Everyone knows that Christmas is to celebrate Jesus birth, but other than that, Christmas won’t be complete without the three kings. And just like him, my new-born-self has three kings. But the difference is they aren’t literally kings who owns a palace and offers me million of dollars or even sack of gold. (How I wish they will. Hahaha). But these are three ordinary men who intrude my current state. J Singleness that I am now, for sure you’re wondering how I can have three men. But as you read on, gal friends will agree that a lady will have these men in their lives. Most will meet them one after another while a few will meet them all at once, just like I do now. That’s why I feel like I’m a new-born baby Jesus with three kings. Hahaha. To end your curiousity, I’d introduce to you my three kings:

King #1:

A king that offered me love, but in return, I offered him friendship.
Awww, poor king. hahaha. But to surprise you, he is indeed my friend now, one of my closest actually. I’ve met a number of King#1 in my life, but they didn’t exactly became my friend. Most of them disappeared into thin air after I told them the magic word, “I like you as friend”. Only one particular king#1 stayed as my friend no matter how much I blurt into his face that magic word. Honestly, I appreciate the guy alot, coz he have accepted my offer without grudges against me, and he’s just plainly happy for me. And I know gals will agree that this kind of man is what they hope their man would be, a man who’d stay even if you push them away or reject them. (well, dream on, hahaha, just kidding, but there are lucky gals out there). This could have been the perfect man, if only, IF ONLY I had feelings for him. But ironic life can be, I don’t feel anything for the guy. So all I’d be able to say is, “Oh life”.

King #2:

A King I’m really attracted to, but the problem is, he doesn’t see me.
Poor me? Nah, he’s blind. Hahaha. This king inspires me to go to work every waking night. Why night? It’s coz I’m working graveyard. Just having him around the same room and seeing him pass by already makes me smile. Hahaha. This king makes me feel like an infatuated high school girl. Oh man.
Having someone to spice your life is a good way to start a happy day (eerr night?). But the problem is he’s too busy to see me. Oh my. He doesn’t even know how to say “hi”. It’s probably coz he’s snob or just plainly not interested. L sadness. hahaha, I’m not the type who goes for the guy he likes, I believe in conservative courting, so for sure I won’t make the first move. But I did gave him alittle “signs” for him to notice, but too bad, he still. Sadness. He’s indeed blind. L haha. But sadness as it is, I’m honestly happy just seeing him around. But it won’t hurt if I’ll get to know him more, once he notices me. Hahaha.

King # 3:
The King of my heart and life, but killed me.
Then why I’m still alive? That’s ‘coz he killed the old-me and gave me new life. J With this king, I was 100% ready to give him my life. I almost did, but still he didn’t notice it and still left me. He didn’t bother to explain himself. And lastly, he didn’t care even if I was dying. But I don’t hate the guy, not even mad coz I’ve loved him too much to even get mad at him, but I am disappointed in him. But I won’t push myself to this guy, if he leaves me, that’ll be fine. One thing I’ve learned from dying was that I would never ever ran after a guy ever again. I did it once or twice when I was with my old-self, ofcourse with him, but I’ll never do it again. If one thing I’d ever advise a gal friend is that to never chase after a man, coz once you do, you’ll be in martyrdom forever. Coz the guy will never treat you right ‘coz he’d always take you for granted. That’s tried and tested, so believe me. I still love this guy, ofcourse. But if he doesn’t want me, I don’t want him either.

They say, everything that’s happening with your life is your choice. Now, if I were to choose, who would I chose to love and spend time with? My answer is none of them. Guess that’s why I’m single up to now. Hahaha. Though my friend tease me that I’ll be “Mother Superior (a nun)”, I don’t buy him, coz I’m still young, I’m just 22, for sure I’d meet a guy who has the character from each of this king, that is “Someone who would stay even if I push him away, who’s good-looking-enough that I’ll be attracted to, and lastly, someone I’d love truly again”. For now, I haven’t met him yet, but I’m waiting and searching at the same time. But I know one day, I’d bump with him along my journey and he’ll offer me a gift greater than gold and money, that’s love and commitment. :)

A Great Lesson Learned in 2008

This year, i came to learn the greatest lesson I’ve learned so far. Since that day I’ve known this secret, it openned my eyes to see broader perspective in things. From then, my journey to learning didn’t stop and it still goes on. haha. I sound like a fairy in a fairytale world.haha. You may say I’m enchanted by the secrets power that turned me from someone who used to be a hardheaded-immature-ignorant-pessimist to the bubbly-worryfree-haggardfree-openminded-happiness me. haha.:) I guess I was enchanted in a good way. hahaha.:) And now, I made my own summary of the things that marked in me which lead me to the person I became. The person I’m so loving now.:)
Before you read it, I just have one favor to ask, that’s not to react on it, just read it, you may listen to what it says or not, but just read it. From there, you may reflect if you want to completely forget about it, or might as well, try it.:)
I personally don’t get to accept completely what was written in the book, but it’s main key point is what enchanted me to the optimism and care-free lifestyle side of life. If you are on that side already, I’m lou can you be my friend? haha. if not yet, I recomend that you give this a try. So here it goes…..:
THE SECRET
Written by: Rhonda Byrne
Summarized by: Lou Macabasco
“THOUGHTS BECOME THINGS”
· The Great Secret of Life is the law of attraction.
· The law of attraction says like attracts like, so when you think a thought, you are also attracting like thoughts to you
· Your life is a mirror of the dominant thoughts you think.
· There is no such thing as a hopeless situation. Every single circumstance in your life can change!
· You are like a human transmission tower, transmitting a frequency with your thoughts. If you want to change anything in your life, change the frequency by changing your thoughts.
· “One way to master your mind is to learn to quiet your mind. Without exception, every teacher in this book uses meditation as a daily practice. It wasn’t until I discovered The Secret that I realized how powerful meditation can be. Meditation quiets your mind, helps you control your thoughts, and revitalizes your body. The great news is that you don’t have to set aside hours to meditate. Just three to ten minutes a day to begin with, can be incredibly powerful for gaining control over your thoughts.”
· Decide what you want to be, do, and have, think the thoughts of it, emit the frequency, and your vision will become your life.
· Time serves you because you can think new thoughts and emit a new frequency, now!


TWO SETS OF FEELINGS:
1. Good Feeling – makes you feel good.
2. Bad Feeling – makes you feel bad.

Nothing can come into your experience unless you summon it through persistent thoughts. So, it is impossible to feel bad and at the same time be having good thoughts. That would defy the law, because your thoughts cause your feelings. If you are feeling bad, it is because you are thinking thoughts that are making you feel bad.

Likewise, it’s impossible to feel good and at the same time be having negative thoughts. If you are feeling good, it is because you are thinking good thoughts. You see, you can have whatever you want in your life, no limits. But there’s one catch: You have to feel good.

If you’re feeling good, then you’re creating a future that’s on track with your desires. If you’re feeling bad, you’re creating a future that’s off track with your desires. As you go about your day, the law of attraction is working in every second. Everything we think and feel is creating our future. If you’re worried or in fear, then you’re bringing more of that into your life throughout the day.

Your thoughts and your feelings create your life. It will always be that way.

It’s really important that you feel good, because this feeling good is what goes out as a signal into the Universe and starts to attract more of itself to you. So the more you can feel good, the more you will attract the things that help you feel good, and are able to keep bringing you up higher and higher.

· The big question now is how can you feel good if you’re feeling down?

Make a list of some Secret Shifters to have up your sleeve. These are things that can change your feeling in a snap. It might be beautiful memories, future events, funny moments, nature, a person you love, your favorite music, anything that can shift you back to feeling good. Then if you find yourself angry or frustrated or not feeling good, turn to your Secret Shifters list and focus on them.

“Be aware that as you are feeling good, you are powerfully attracting more good things to you.”

There are three steps to create what you want:
1. Ask
2. Believe
3. Receive

Asking the Universe for what you want is your opportunity to get clear about what you want. As you get clear in your mind, you have asked.

Believing involves acting, speaking, and thinking as though you have already received what you’ve asked for. When you emit the frequency of having received it, the law of attraction moves people, events, and circumstances for you to receive.

Receiving involves feeling the way you will feel once your desire has manifested. Feeling good now puts you on the frequency of what you want.

“Whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.”‘ – MATTHEW 21:22

“What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.” – MARK 11:24

“That a man can change himself… and master his own destiny is the conclusion of every mind who is wide-awake to the power of right thought.”

The main key to good life is Gratitude.

It is absolutely the way to bring more into your life. It is impossible to bring more into your life if you are feeling ungrateful about what you have. Because the thoughts and feelings you emit as you feel ungrateful are all negative emotions. Whether it is jealousy, resentment, dissatisfaction, or feelings of “not enough” those feelings cannot bring you what you want.

Be grateful for what you have now. As you begin to think about all the things in your life you are grateful for, you will be amazed at the never-ending thoughts that come back to you of more things to be grateful for.

Last but main point of the law is learning how to VISUALIZE.

Each morning before you get out of bed, make it a habit to feel the feelings of gratitude in advance for the great day ahead, as though it is done. Visualization is simply powerfully focused thought in pictures, and it causes equally powerful feelings.

Great men knew the secret. They had utter faith in the invisible, and who knew the power within them to bring the invention into the visible. Their faith and their imagination have been the cause of the evolution of humankind, and we reap the benefits of their creative minds every single day.

To end this summary, I strongly believe and have faith in this saying:

The shortcut to anything you want in your life is to BE and FEEL happy now! It is the fastest way to bring anything you want into your life. Remember to remember, that thoughts become things!

Beaming & Bumming


It’s 1:20pm. I’m working on graveyard shift, so I’m supposed to be sleeping by now if I want to be awake on my work later on, but damn, I can’t sleep. L Well, pretty much been sleeping the whole night that’s why. Working @ night is pretty much interesting. A lot of pro’s and con’s. And I’m not clinging to it anymore. I just live it each day, if until when, we’ll see. Just a few more days and 2008 will be done, yippee. Hahaha.. well, as for me, 2008 isn’t pretty lucky year for me, but it sure is a memorable and I’ve learned a lot..TOO MUCH actually. So it’s a pretty GOOD YEAR, just not so lucky. And what I’m looking forward before it ends are, the Christmas bonuses (ofcourse) and a lot of parties (for Xmas). Haha. Exciting. 2009..by now, people are probably listing resolutions and stuff. For me, they’ve been long listed, but as a friend says the action is waiting.hahaha. Things happen, so sometimes you have to delay stuff. And “hopefully”, things will fall into place by next year. And now, my patience needs to be stretched some more. I’ve realized 2008 is a year of “WAITING” for me. That if I’ll look at it in totality, I’d say nothing happens much, in terms of achieving things, but I know for myself that a lot happened and changed. Not just physically (with my bangz thingy) but also mental and emotional perspective. I’ve changed a lot that I see things so differently now. Hahaha. Too different, I amaze even myself. Like for an instance, cutting my hair short with bangs. One of my weaknesses before is my hair, I seldom experiment on my hair (well you can say, never). Coz I have this phobia or whatever you call it, that whenever my hair is cut down or something changed with my hair, I cry. Literally. Hahaha. I can’t say why, but I just cry. Immature as I was before, I even cried in front of the hairdresser who did my hair. Hahaha. But now it’s different, when I cut down hair with bangs, even if I looked like a ball with a wig, I felt happy. Hahaha. Coz finally, I did something out of extraordinary, I’ve went out of my comfort zone and lastly, I was BRAVE ENOUGH to face my fears and ACCEPT CHANGE. And honestly, I’M SO LOVING IT.hahaha. Things aren’t falling into place, or even to my plans, but despite, I’m so happy. Happiness that comes from within, not from someone else, from material things and not even success. I know this kind of happiness won’t last long with all the things life ‘WANTS’ to offer us that makes us crave and feel unhappy, but right now, I just want to recognize this state of happiness I’m having before it goes out. I finally realized that happiness comes in a lot of forms, you just have to acknowledge its existence instead of mourning on things. As I’ve learned, happiness is a choice.

After Closing

Month of October just closed which means another busy “closing” day ended. My work isn’t directly affected by this but it gives me a little bit stress when it’s closing coz that means I’d be overloaded again with another month to handle. I’m trying to relate my topic with this, but the main point of my blogging again is to distress what I feel after a “thing” officially ended. It has been long ended actually, but this time, it’s really closed. When I say this, that means, I’m not turning back. I guess this time I’ve reached my limit, not only coz it was frankly blurt out on my face, but merely b’coz of the fact that the insensitivity of someone reached all the patience or better yet call it martyrdom I have with me. It’s actually good that it was done that way, coz if not I wouldn’t reach this point where I know I won’t turn back anymore. Honestly, I hate this stage I’m in coz when I feel this way on someone, that person can never enter my world anymore. I’m really sad that it happened this way, after all. I’m not sad it ended, coz honestly I love the freedom I have now, I love the feeling of living my life for myself. But I can’t help not to be sad that a once perfect relationship turned out to be my worst nightmare. That the person I’ve perceived as my prince turned out to be a beast. A beast that’s too insensitive. (hahaha, I hope he’ll never read this, but if he will, well this is what I think and I’m just expressing it). You might think I’m having grudges or anything, you may think whatever you want, but I only knows how much I’ve gone thru, and bcoz of that experienced I can 100% say that I’ve stated a fact and not mere grudges. I’m tired. I’m tired of hiding and diverting the grudges I’ve been having. I’d be plastic if I say I don’t coz with everything he put me thru, I’m a saint if I’d say I’m not mad. I’m not mad that he closed me off, I’m just mad with how he did it. Hanging you without answers for a couple of months, then show “gratitude” after that, then close you off again. Insensitive, that’s all I can say. Leche if I’d say it in tagalog. Hahaha. Well, thanks to that tho, coz now, I’m really fed up. No turning back. I’d give myself a trophy for martyrdom if I will. I’m so glad this happened now that I see things in a different perspective coz if before, damn, I don’t know how to cope with it. But as my friends say, God won’t give you a situation where he knows you can’t handle it guess he knows how tough I am now. Hahaha. Now, I’m just excited to meet who my next prince will be, I’m not rushing, coz at this point, I’m loving “singleness”. One thing I’ve realized now is I’m just 22…young..too young.. I’ve made my “not-so-good-priorities” before that lead me to how strong and motivated I am now, that’s why I’m so glad it happened. Other than the fact I’ve saved myself for a lifelong martyrdom, I’ve finally discovered who I am and I’m loving myself more. It’s not being selfish, I’m just being “complete” with who I am. Now, after that close, I know I’ll be better. I was, and I will be. J Now, I feel relieved, coz finally, I’ve expressed my grudge that I’ve been keeping to public coz I was actually waiting. But this time, it’s different. I’m gonna live my life, reach for my goals, learn from my next failures, and hopefully someday, to bump with my real prince, if not, I’d still die happy and fulfilled. :)