I'm sick physically and emotionally lonely at the moment. So what to do? hehe, just be shallow and answer this thingy. A to Z about me as of 01.21.09. :) Love to check this part again in the next 5 years so I know what changed about "me" by then. :)
I've once talked to my bestfriend on how different our paths have been with the way we've pictured it in college. Too bad, I didn't have a record of what I wanted then. One thing I remember was I wanted to be a SGV Partner, and my bessy seems to be the one living that dream now while I'm so far from it.hahaha. But that's alright coz at the moment I have a different want. :)
So, here goes: (This is "ME" now)
A to Z questions to ease my stress and loneliness (*drama* - haha):
A] - AVAILABLE?
Unfortunately and fortunately... YES, single and available but :).
Unfortunately for him/them, fortunately for me??? wehehe...( :( )
[B] - BIRTH PLACE?
Macabebe
[C] - CELL PHONE?
Motorolla V8
D] - DRINK YOU HAD LAST?
Water :)
[F] - FAVORITE COLORS?
Green, Orange and Red (nice combination!)
[G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS?
Gummy worms
[H] - HOMETOWN?
Macabebe and Malate
[I]-FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
rocky road
[J] - JUST SOMETHING YOU ALWAYS SAY?
Honestly. hahaha. "Living with integrity". hahahaha.
[K]- KILLED SOMEONE?
Nope. Never and will never. :)
[L] - Limeade or lemonade?
Limeade?? --- what's that? (lou: ignorant again!)
Obviously, Lemonade. :)
[M]-MONEY OR LOVE??
Both!!!!! hahaha. But to choose, I'd rather have LOVE. What I'll do with money if I don't have someone to share it with??!!! and LOVE is the main reason of being! :) Money and all others are just "incidental" stuff!
[N] - Number of Siblings?
3
[O]Outgoing?
Not too much, but not too loner anymore than I "used to be". :)
I think I'm friendly and bubblier nowadays. :)
[P] - Piercings?
Just the two ear piercing I had since my toddler days (which btw, isn't my choice.hahaha)
[Q] -Quiet?
It depends. I'm "seemed" to be quiet but I'm the opposite actually. :)
I'm quiet only when:
- i'm with someone i'm not at ease to (i don't like, in short)
- I'm working on something (just to focus my precious thoughts hahaha)
- sleeping.. (or am I? I might be snoring.hahahah)
- listening to someone who's talking (ofcourse!!!)
- I'm mad.
[R] - Reasons you smile?
Now, I "SMILE" at ALL COST.
I try to be grateful in anything but everything. :)
[S] - LAST SONG YOU LAST HEARD?
"I Love You Goodbye!" - Celine Dion
A friend have been teasing me that song that whole day. GOSH. hahaha.
[T]- TIME YOU WOKE UP
7:20 am.
Whew! Good thing I wasn't late. I just brought my breakfast at work.hahahaha
[U] - DO YOU LOVE ANYONE?
Yes. I do.
Who??
- A past and a present.
- friends
- people that believes in me
- my family. :)
- and my God.
** But I wanna learn to love those who I hate. When it happens, I'm too ready to die.hahaha
[V] - VEGETABLES
hmmm.. this is the hardest question..hahaha.
I like Carrots and potatoes
[W] - WORST HABIT?
Crying when I'm mad. Damn, how can I fight back?? hahaha
[X] - X-RAYS?
during my APE last year.
[Y] - YOUR FAVORITE FOOD?
too many. but I'll always love palabok and arellenong bangus .. :) and... chocolates :)
[Z] -ZODIAC SIGN?
- Aquarious
* Guess that's why I love water. :)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
01.20.2009
Today's the inaguration of Barrack Obama, ofcourse, it's memorable coz it'll be the first african-american president, and seems to be one of the youngest president of the United States. It's sure is a memorable day for me too. Used to be. While everybody is happy and excited, I feel the opposite. I don't know why it's so easy for others to find someone new and I can't. :( But that's alright, I know, IN TIME. :)
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Enduring
I've never been the type who endures. I used to be very out-spoken, if i don't like it, I say it. But since that "miracle" thingy that happened to me last year, I suddenly became too patient in everythin that sometimes I want to tell me myself and scream, "SAY No!" or "Don't Do It!" or "You're f**ckn bitch!". haha. But I don't coz I honestly am so willing to endure it with all my heart that I DON'T FEEL like complaining. And honestly, it's very unusual, very unlike me. But I'M SO LOVING IT even tho after the end of the day, I feel like crying. haha.
I grew up lucky that I always get what I want until that "luckiness" ended last year. I don't know why but since then, everything in my life became out-of-control, or others may call it "unlucky". If this happened to someone else, probably, they'd feel so bad right now. but i don't know why I feel so great with unluckiness. Things aren't going my way; i'm work-loaded, lonely and loveless, under-employed and underpaid, annoying monkeys around me, but still I endure and find ways to be happy.
And since I know how it feels like to both be lucky and unlucky, I can honestly admit that I like unlucky better. Coz i feel more matured and broad-minded in things. I feel like I'm willing to face anything coz I'm strong enough to endure it and find ways to feel great about it. And so unlike of everyone else. :)
Anyways, have to cut this out, i'm just venting out and distressing the stress I'm feeling at the moment. But I'm so happy being stressed. I know, I'm a WEIRDO.hehe.:)
I grew up lucky that I always get what I want until that "luckiness" ended last year. I don't know why but since then, everything in my life became out-of-control, or others may call it "unlucky". If this happened to someone else, probably, they'd feel so bad right now. but i don't know why I feel so great with unluckiness. Things aren't going my way; i'm work-loaded, lonely and loveless, under-employed and underpaid, annoying monkeys around me, but still I endure and find ways to be happy.
And since I know how it feels like to both be lucky and unlucky, I can honestly admit that I like unlucky better. Coz i feel more matured and broad-minded in things. I feel like I'm willing to face anything coz I'm strong enough to endure it and find ways to feel great about it. And so unlike of everyone else. :)
Anyways, have to cut this out, i'm just venting out and distressing the stress I'm feeling at the moment. But I'm so happy being stressed. I know, I'm a WEIRDO.hehe.:)
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Be Thankful
Got this from one of the partners of the Company I've loved and proud to have worked at, SGV & Co. I miss that company so much, the professionalism of the people, the fulfilling work and training, and most especially, I miss my friends and the bondings. Tho it was a past experience now, I will always treasure those memorable and fulfilled years I've stayed in that Company. Leaving that Company was really one of the hardest decision I've ever made in my entire life, because there lays my dream and passion. After leaving it, my life started to feel out of control and I felt lost. But it doesn't mean I'm not happy now, guess it just shaken my path alittle coz i was so sure before, it was a sure path.
Now, I have a new path, very far and different from that past, and I can sense that I'll succeed in it because I know my passion is in it already. Tho at times it still confuses me because I had two different desires in a lifetime, but I can feel that my current passion is where I really wanna be despite the thought that I may forget my own profession.
Anyways, here's the words of wisdom from PTT, this is very true. I've applied this principles during my dark and broken moments and it helped me alot in moving on and look at the great things about my life. If only all people would apply this in life, the world will be a better place to live in coz no one else will be complaining anymore.
As I've said to a friend, "If you don't want it, don't do it. But if you have no choice, just endure it, but instead of mourning and complaining just look at the brighter side of it and look forward for its reward".
**** BE THANKFUL ****
Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn.
Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for each new challenge, because it will build your strength and character.
Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made the effort.
Be thankful when you lose a battle, this will give you inspiration to fight back and win the war.
It's easy to be thankful for the good things. A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.
Gratitude can turn a negative into positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles and they can become your blessings.
Now, I have a new path, very far and different from that past, and I can sense that I'll succeed in it because I know my passion is in it already. Tho at times it still confuses me because I had two different desires in a lifetime, but I can feel that my current passion is where I really wanna be despite the thought that I may forget my own profession.
Anyways, here's the words of wisdom from PTT, this is very true. I've applied this principles during my dark and broken moments and it helped me alot in moving on and look at the great things about my life. If only all people would apply this in life, the world will be a better place to live in coz no one else will be complaining anymore.
As I've said to a friend, "If you don't want it, don't do it. But if you have no choice, just endure it, but instead of mourning and complaining just look at the brighter side of it and look forward for its reward".
**** BE THANKFUL ****
Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire. If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn.
Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for each new challenge, because it will build your strength and character.
Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made the effort.
Be thankful when you lose a battle, this will give you inspiration to fight back and win the war.
It's easy to be thankful for the good things. A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.
Gratitude can turn a negative into positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles and they can become your blessings.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Bonjour 2009!!
A new year may mean a year older or a new beginning. Most have probably listed their New Year’s resolutions or plans. And I wasn’t spared to this question, “What’s my new year’s resolution?” That question made me smile.
I’m a woman of objective, well, stating it simple; I don’t usually wait for a new year to set a plan. I’m naturally futuristic and I always try to plan ahead. With my old-self, I was goal-oriented but short-sighted. I grew up lucky that whenever I want something and set my whole focus in it, I usually get what I want. Lucky, huh? J But I was then too short-sighted coz I’ve always wanted to get what I want the way I’ve pictured it by will-power and faith. The only problem with my old-self is that I’m too futuristic that sometimes I tend to neglect or set-aside “today”. And that’s what I love about the new-me, coz the new me lives fully today but futuristic at the same time. Is it possible? Well, I can see that it is. And it’s just a game of “balance”. :)
In our world now, a lot of people are having a hard time, especially those I see homeless in the metro. Sometimes I wonder if it was just merely fate that brought them in such situation or there’s something else lacking? And whenever I see these people, I do feel saddened, but it makes me think of this phrase at the same time, “What I am is God’s gift to me, what I become is my gift to God”.
Everybody knows how to pray (except atheist, of course), and I wonder sometimes how others pray. Do they ask for a 100% worry-free life? Or do they ask for a miracle to happen? I grew up in a 100% catholic family and was educated 100% by a catholic school/university from kinder until I received my diploma. And I used to think that everybody had their theology class for 16years.hahaha. Being exposed to a catholic environment, prayer is a daily activity for me. And to increase the level of intensity of my prayer, I do novenas.haha. And what do I usually pray? Before, I ask help in whatever I want at that moment. And I guess, most will agree that they do
the same.
But this year was different, I seldom pray for what I want anymore, not even help, or miracle or a worry-free life. Guess I was awaken by the truth that I’m living in an imperfect world. What I ask now is a proper state of heart and mind that is strong enough to face whatever this imperfect world will throw to my face. :)
And to begin 2009, I’d answer that question, “What’s my new year’s resolution?” And my answer is nothing. All I need is a light to have a proper state of mind and heart, and then everything in 2009 (and the rest of my years) will be alright. :)
Happy New Year!!!
I’m a woman of objective, well, stating it simple; I don’t usually wait for a new year to set a plan. I’m naturally futuristic and I always try to plan ahead. With my old-self, I was goal-oriented but short-sighted. I grew up lucky that whenever I want something and set my whole focus in it, I usually get what I want. Lucky, huh? J But I was then too short-sighted coz I’ve always wanted to get what I want the way I’ve pictured it by will-power and faith. The only problem with my old-self is that I’m too futuristic that sometimes I tend to neglect or set-aside “today”. And that’s what I love about the new-me, coz the new me lives fully today but futuristic at the same time. Is it possible? Well, I can see that it is. And it’s just a game of “balance”. :)
In our world now, a lot of people are having a hard time, especially those I see homeless in the metro. Sometimes I wonder if it was just merely fate that brought them in such situation or there’s something else lacking? And whenever I see these people, I do feel saddened, but it makes me think of this phrase at the same time, “What I am is God’s gift to me, what I become is my gift to God”.
Everybody knows how to pray (except atheist, of course), and I wonder sometimes how others pray. Do they ask for a 100% worry-free life? Or do they ask for a miracle to happen? I grew up in a 100% catholic family and was educated 100% by a catholic school/university from kinder until I received my diploma. And I used to think that everybody had their theology class for 16years.hahaha. Being exposed to a catholic environment, prayer is a daily activity for me. And to increase the level of intensity of my prayer, I do novenas.haha. And what do I usually pray? Before, I ask help in whatever I want at that moment. And I guess, most will agree that they do
the same.
But this year was different, I seldom pray for what I want anymore, not even help, or miracle or a worry-free life. Guess I was awaken by the truth that I’m living in an imperfect world. What I ask now is a proper state of heart and mind that is strong enough to face whatever this imperfect world will throw to my face. :)
And to begin 2009, I’d answer that question, “What’s my new year’s resolution?” And my answer is nothing. All I need is a light to have a proper state of mind and heart, and then everything in 2009 (and the rest of my years) will be alright. :)
Happy New Year!!!
Adios 2008
Today might be the last day I’d get the chance to be online since I’d be in my hometown the rest of 2008, and I wouldn’t want to miss the chance leaving this year without proper goodbye.
2008 is one of the best year I had so far, best may even be an understatement. It was too great that I can’t imagine how many things squeezed in just a year, but I’m so glad and thankful that it did. It was a perfect mixture of happiness and sadness that eventually made me the person that I am now, the person that feels so great in every perspective.
Talking ‘bout happiness, this year I was able to travel a lot and meet both my old and new friends. I have gone to Cebu, Puerto Galera, Nueva Vizcaya, Banaue and Baguio. I’ve been able to be in touch with my college friends that I haven’t seen in the longest time, both from pre-com and accountancy. I was able to establish real closeness with my family than I ever did. And lastly, I have met new friends and best friends that I know I can trust and build long term friendship. :)
But there were also too many goodbyes this year, start it off with the end of a 5-years relationship, relatives and friends that have gone to the next life, and just recently, my bro going abroad. Goodbyes are the saddest thing but I got immune to it as I grow up just by the number of times I’ve transferred schools and home address, however, this year’ goodbyes felt different coz despite the pain and the sadness, it gave me a lot of lessons and a new insight on things. Now, I see goodbyes as a new beginning of greater things in life, so I don’t fear and be too saddened by it. More, it gives me happiness and excitement to face the new challenge of a different world. :)
Other than relationships, travels and goodbyes, I’ve learned a lot of new things this year too, from attending French classes and leadership/ business seminars and reading books. But the best lessons I’ve had were the wisdom learned from the experience of hardship. It is so true that beyond failure and disappointment, a great treasure is hidden. :)
If without the support of my family, friends and my creator, I don’t know how I’ll ever survive 2008. I almost had the intention of losing life, but thankfully a proper light came to me to appreciate the greatest thing that happened to me, and that’s realizing the great power of my mind and my light. :)
2009 has lots of predictions especially both on global financial and environmental crisis. Most people aren’t aware of it, and worse, don’t even care about it. But despite, I feel like I’m ready to face 2009, having with me the lots of things I’ve learned this year that will help me survive another challenging-fun year. :)
2008 is one of the best year I had so far, best may even be an understatement. It was too great that I can’t imagine how many things squeezed in just a year, but I’m so glad and thankful that it did. It was a perfect mixture of happiness and sadness that eventually made me the person that I am now, the person that feels so great in every perspective.
Talking ‘bout happiness, this year I was able to travel a lot and meet both my old and new friends. I have gone to Cebu, Puerto Galera, Nueva Vizcaya, Banaue and Baguio. I’ve been able to be in touch with my college friends that I haven’t seen in the longest time, both from pre-com and accountancy. I was able to establish real closeness with my family than I ever did. And lastly, I have met new friends and best friends that I know I can trust and build long term friendship. :)
But there were also too many goodbyes this year, start it off with the end of a 5-years relationship, relatives and friends that have gone to the next life, and just recently, my bro going abroad. Goodbyes are the saddest thing but I got immune to it as I grow up just by the number of times I’ve transferred schools and home address, however, this year’ goodbyes felt different coz despite the pain and the sadness, it gave me a lot of lessons and a new insight on things. Now, I see goodbyes as a new beginning of greater things in life, so I don’t fear and be too saddened by it. More, it gives me happiness and excitement to face the new challenge of a different world. :)
Other than relationships, travels and goodbyes, I’ve learned a lot of new things this year too, from attending French classes and leadership/ business seminars and reading books. But the best lessons I’ve had were the wisdom learned from the experience of hardship. It is so true that beyond failure and disappointment, a great treasure is hidden. :)
If without the support of my family, friends and my creator, I don’t know how I’ll ever survive 2008. I almost had the intention of losing life, but thankfully a proper light came to me to appreciate the greatest thing that happened to me, and that’s realizing the great power of my mind and my light. :)
2009 has lots of predictions especially both on global financial and environmental crisis. Most people aren’t aware of it, and worse, don’t even care about it. But despite, I feel like I’m ready to face 2009, having with me the lots of things I’ve learned this year that will help me survive another challenging-fun year. :)
Penalty of Success
One of the Filipino-Chinese influences I have now is Mr.Francis Kong. I believe the man has it says in terms on success, business and life itself. I’ve attended his seminars once and was lucky enough to shake hands with him. I haven’t bought any of his books but I regularly check his blogs. (www.franciskong.com). Just recently, he posted this blog entitled “Everybody loves a winner….or do they really?”. It talks about a thing that I myself was experiencing. It has alot of terms, can be office politics, crab mentality, or even cannibalism. But to quote it further, it talks about the penalty of success that an individual will have to face whenever excel in her/his field, and that’s the antipathy of others.
In every workplace exists a cannibal. These are people who eat you up with jealousy and envy the moment they see you successful and that your success poses a threat to their own. A winner isn’t being loved by all, a winner creates an admiration and envy at the same time. We’ve heard often that adversity tells you who your friends are. Success does, too. Failure and success both reveal who really cares about us – the ones who stick with us through thin and thick. If anything, success identifies genuine friends more surely than failure does.
This kind of mentality is a viral in Filipino culture. Just looking at our own politics for instance, since I was born in 1986 (EDSA 1 Days) impeachment is being raised to anyone who will seat in the presidency. And why? Because everyone else’s thinks they deserve better to seat. It’s bullshit honestly. That’s why I seldom watch news, local news. Coz everyday, you see pure bad politics that they’re exposing and it’s really unhealthy for my mindset who seeks greatness and gratefulness. If I’ll watch it, I’ll just end up with how everybody else’s feels, ungrateful and unsatisfied. Setting aside politics, I can see that PI can really go further and rise its well being, if only, most have the right mentality. And one of those is cannibalism. Instead of mourning and complaining on how good others get, why not look into your own folly? Who knows you lack on something too? Or maybe it isn’t the right time for you and something else’s better planned for you? Instead of spreading ungratefulness and bad image of the person to someone else, why not just try to work on where you lack and be better?
I’m fond of Koreans and Japanese. Not only their drama (movies and teleseryes) that I love, I love how these people value and love their country. I love how they value unity which is very far from PI. I’ve once read a friend’s blog that’s an essay of her Korean student. In that blog, the Korean compared how different PI and Korea is. In 90’s, South Korea’s economy was way behind PI’s economy. Their economy suffered a lot after the battle between the North and South ended. But unlike PI, most Korean stayed put in their country and those who were residing abroad went back home to help their country stand up. They didn’t care who gets the credit or not, instead they just worked together in unity to bring their economy back on track. And our time now, who would have thought that South Korea belongs to the Top 5 most expensive city? (Seoul). Reading that blog made me see how different our PI culture is, which no wonder why our country is still behind.
Its Christmas time again, so before I go further, Merry Christmas. J Hahaha. Most pinoys are probably exchanging gifts by now. Other than spreading and giving material gifts, maybe we can stop cannibalism and start working on spreading unity and gratefulness as a gift. J This is the perfect time to start it before the great financial crisis truly hits us. :)
In every workplace exists a cannibal. These are people who eat you up with jealousy and envy the moment they see you successful and that your success poses a threat to their own. A winner isn’t being loved by all, a winner creates an admiration and envy at the same time. We’ve heard often that adversity tells you who your friends are. Success does, too. Failure and success both reveal who really cares about us – the ones who stick with us through thin and thick. If anything, success identifies genuine friends more surely than failure does.
This kind of mentality is a viral in Filipino culture. Just looking at our own politics for instance, since I was born in 1986 (EDSA 1 Days) impeachment is being raised to anyone who will seat in the presidency. And why? Because everyone else’s thinks they deserve better to seat. It’s bullshit honestly. That’s why I seldom watch news, local news. Coz everyday, you see pure bad politics that they’re exposing and it’s really unhealthy for my mindset who seeks greatness and gratefulness. If I’ll watch it, I’ll just end up with how everybody else’s feels, ungrateful and unsatisfied. Setting aside politics, I can see that PI can really go further and rise its well being, if only, most have the right mentality. And one of those is cannibalism. Instead of mourning and complaining on how good others get, why not look into your own folly? Who knows you lack on something too? Or maybe it isn’t the right time for you and something else’s better planned for you? Instead of spreading ungratefulness and bad image of the person to someone else, why not just try to work on where you lack and be better?
I’m fond of Koreans and Japanese. Not only their drama (movies and teleseryes) that I love, I love how these people value and love their country. I love how they value unity which is very far from PI. I’ve once read a friend’s blog that’s an essay of her Korean student. In that blog, the Korean compared how different PI and Korea is. In 90’s, South Korea’s economy was way behind PI’s economy. Their economy suffered a lot after the battle between the North and South ended. But unlike PI, most Korean stayed put in their country and those who were residing abroad went back home to help their country stand up. They didn’t care who gets the credit or not, instead they just worked together in unity to bring their economy back on track. And our time now, who would have thought that South Korea belongs to the Top 5 most expensive city? (Seoul). Reading that blog made me see how different our PI culture is, which no wonder why our country is still behind.
Its Christmas time again, so before I go further, Merry Christmas. J Hahaha. Most pinoys are probably exchanging gifts by now. Other than spreading and giving material gifts, maybe we can stop cannibalism and start working on spreading unity and gratefulness as a gift. J This is the perfect time to start it before the great financial crisis truly hits us. :)
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